i could seriously listen to the camp song for weeks and never get tired of it, also, i never noticed how long chapters 26 and 27 of Matthew are, but they are very good chapters so it’s all good. it’s kinda weird now that i’m writing more often cause there’s not much to talk about but oh well, I will continue to write. But seriously, the camp song is amazing.

i wanna drive really badly, can anyone lend me a car for a while? That would be nifty

Times like this I’m really glad that I’ve got Jesus cause He’s so awesome that it just makes me forget my problems. I really like that one verse, at least I think it’s a verse, I don’t know where it is though, the one where it says that none of this will even compare to the glorious joy we will have when we go to Heaven with Jesus, or something like that, I don’t know I just really like it. If one of you guys know the verse then please inform me a.s.a.p!!!! ha, love you guys, peace

haven’t written in a while, don’t really know why but i’m going to try not to do it again:) so i’m just gonna start with today and go backwards. Went to the doctors this morning for the first time in like 6 years and had to get a shot cause my thyroid:( BUT afterwards my dad drove me to the MVD and I got my permit, and it only took about 30 minutes which is good cause i was really hungry. I haven’t really done anything unusual this summer but I’m doing pretty good cause I’m keeping up on my reading, which brings me to Job, that book is SO FLIPPIN AMAZING, and it really encouraged me to just keep on pushing and growing in God:) and also, Paul is a straight up g…nius. ha came up with that myself, anyways. I also got Verizon during the summer so every time i pass a Cricket store I point and laugh, it’s great. Not gonna lie, i really miss everyone and I really miss The Refuge, really hoping my dad lets me go one of these days but until then I will not give up hope, and I won’t give up hope after that too i guess, ha.

My dad’s getting married soon, at least i think so, i’m not very sure but i hope that whatever happens my dad is happy… and eventually decides to visit Scottsdale one day, maybe, just maybe.

so yeah, thats pretty much my summer, miss all you guys and hopefully i will keep up on my writing:) peace

i feel like i definitely need to change the way i am living my life, starting with getting A LOT closer to God and making the right decisions from now on. yeah just wanted to write that down so i did.

So i had to miss refuge tonight but i got by alright cause i managed to watch it on the little webcam on therefugeyouth.com even though it wasn’t the same it was still the same message, which was amazing, sometimes Sean makes me want to pee my pants cause when he speaks he just gets me so excited. but yeah the lil webcam skipped over the 8 word sentence that Sean was talking about and its killing me to know what it was.

During service two ideas popped into my head. One i’m still working on and the other i can’t stop thinking about. So this is how my ideas came into my head… 

This is what was going through my head during service tonight…

Dang P. Did is mentioning the fruits of the Spirit alot. Yeah he’s right, no one is going to shut down a friend that has love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control towards them. Oh yeah Jesus had all of those things. I bet that if everyone would really like Jesus if they just got to know Him. FIRST IDEA POPPED INTO MY HEAD!!! I bet that if i asked people what they look for in a friend or if i list off the fruits of the Spirit then they would say that’s the perfect friend. Then the idea was still there but I wasn’t sure how I would mention to the people I was talking to how Jesus is all of those things and that He could be their best friend.

going on

SECOND IDEA POPPED INTO MY HEAD!!! (this is the one that i can’t stop thinking about)

there are a few people in my school that i really want to show the love of Jesus but they are either atheist of Jewish so i don’t want them to get offended and never talk to me again because i really want to make an impact on them. So i was thinking you know asking Jesus for some advice on how to reach them and He gave me one.

One day during class i can randomly start talking about this guy that is so amazing and how He’s my best friend. You know get them really interested so they want to know more about Him. If they ask for a name, i will say Emmanuel, and if they ask what He does, I will say that He’s pretty much the head of the church. Then somedays i will tell them about this cool thing He did the day before(cool story from the Bible in modern times) and let them see how awesome of a person He is. I don’t know what to do after that, I could invite them to church so they could meet Him or do something that’s really cool to reveal Emmanuel(Jesus) to them.

Well i don’t know about you guys but I really want this year to be our year and in order to do that we need to start reaching out more to people and even though some ideas might sound far-fetched there is still no harm in trying.

I want to thank the leaders for being so unbelievably awesome and cool.

I love you guys and I hope you have an awesome night/day/week/year/LIFE!!!

yeah… i totally forgot about refugeblogs but anyways moving on. well first off it’s the new year and it’s still kinda hard for me to write 08 instead of 07. First things first, first Refuge service of ‘08 aka the service that changed me… for good. no more making promises to God and then breaking them and now being more obedient to Christ. I’ve also been trying to be content in every and any situation and to be honest it was reall hard to do that today. have you ever been so bored that it drives you angry? it started happening to me today. i stayed in a trailer all day today when i could have been doing a lot of other things. LIKE, going to church, playing softball with everyone, play tennis with my friends, something, anything but i was at home. At first i was doing good. I did my daily reading of the bible(finally finished Deuteronomy and now i’m on Joshua). then i tried having conversation with nannette but she was on the comp so i got bored. and then more bored, and i kept on reminding myself to be content but it just didn’t work. So i watched tv which i usually don’t do unless i’m watching friends. I watched tv until friends came on and then watched some more tv for about 3 or so hours. I hate days like this when you want to be happy and stuff but all you end up doing is complaining. which i’m going to stop now cause i don’t like it when i complain.  but i’m still not going to give up. i know that God is there for me and will never leave me nor forsake me so i just need to keep my chin up. hopefully i can find a way to get to church on Saturdays cause i really miss doing saturday church stuff.

also i want to say sorry to Gabi. i have never noticed what i said really meant anything but i would dislike it also if people didn’t take me seriously just because i was home schooled. just letting you know Gabi no matter what anyone says you are still awesome.

i’m not sure how long this is but im going to keep on going.

 just because today happened doesn’t mean im really depressed it’s just that i want to be done with these kinds of Saturdays and i’m still content no matter what. after writing this far into my post i think i noticed what i did wrong today.

I totally didn’t talk to God about what was happening. instead i went and wasted my day watching tv. dang… well im glad i noticed that now. alright, Thanks God for making that clear to me.

a few last little notes.

i just want to say thanks to all my friends. it seems like since i haven’t been able to go to church that much like i barely see you but i still love you guys and i want to thank you guys for being awesome.

i have made a few new years resolutions.

1. is finish reading the Old Testament like I promised God i would last year.

2. is to make sure to get a closer relationship with God, considering the fact that He loves me to death. 

3. is to tell someone something so i can finally get it off my chest(i was going to accomplish this at the new years party but i wasn’t able to go so now i have to find another time to say it).

4. is to be a better Christ like person so i can be a better witness to everyone that im trying to reach out to. 

5. is to somehow get my dad to start going to our church again and for him to get his priorities straight.

well i cant think of anything else to write so im done. ha nannette is going to have fun reading this.

dang, Pastor Dan made a great point last night in his message. It’s still jumping around in my head right now. i’m going through all these things in my life for a reason and i’m content with whatever God is doing in my life. I could really care less if people make fun of me or look at me weird when i talk about Jesus cause He can’t be mocked, and as long as it’s for His sake then i’m fine and it doesn’t say anywhere in the Bible that the life of following Christ is going to be easy, and i’m content about that. I’m still not sure what I should do about my dad not going to church and sometimes not letting me go to church but i’m going to pray alot on it and i know that God won’t put me through something i can’t handle and that He will provide. I hope you guys got something out of the message last night as much as i did cause this definitely helped me out with what is happening in my life and i know it can help alot of other people too.